Self-degradation and Enlightenment.

Oh my. Look at what this place has become. I'm insulting myself to try and come off as funny. You could say that I was being funny at the expense of my sanity, and that's exactly what's happening.

In recent posts, i've been degrading myself, depicting myself as some hopeless, creepy, socially inept shut-in, that does nothing but play dating sims. Eh, in essence, that's what I am, but there's more to me than that, or so I like to think. I think i've gone too far in this game of self-degradation, and i'm feeling some effects. It's made me think about many things. Maybe I can change. It definitely isn't too late, I mean, if anything, people at my age shouldn't be doing the things I normally do. What do I do? Well, yeeeeeah. You know what I mean.

Why are these things happening to me? This early too? I'm in a situation comparable to, let's say, a young man unfortunate enough to contract an uncurable terminal illness. He has yet to experience the wonders of life. Alone, he lies in his bed, unable to do anything due to his condition, counting the beats of his heart until they stop forever. In my case, my illness would be my habits, as they hold me back from doing anything, much like the man's condition. In my case, I wouldn't die, but if this goes on, i'd lose all contact with people, which is comparable to death. I don't want this stuff to happen, and chances are, they won't. This is the worst case scenario, of course.

It's scary. Thinking this deeply into this matter has brought up some frightening thoughts. So, i've decided. I'm going to change. Well, not completely, of course. There are some thing's that will remain constant. So, let's start off with something simple, shall we? From today, i'll get off my butt and take some action. Small steps, huh. What can I do?

Because this would totally make sense, go ahead and post suggestions as to what I should do to pick up my act. Starting off small, gradually achieving bigger things. Of course, i'll post about how i'll gradually improve, if I do at all. At best, I hope this post was

And you do something worthwhile with your life too. Until next time.